Standstill.

That's what I feel.
When everybody around me is moving on... and I'm still in that place where I'm stuck between two choices.
Well, that was my choice.. to tread both paths until some blatant opportunity presents itself.
But.. whatever it is, I'm still going to be happy about it. :)

A heartfelt THANK YOU. :)

To all those who remembered and made the effort to greet me.. (whether via Multiply or Friendster or Facebook or thru Text)..

THANK YOU VERY MUCH. :)

Special Mention:

To my Family.. for the overwhelming love and support. For supporting all my luho.. Thank you very much. :) I love you all!! :)

To the only one who made an effort to call me.. at exactly 12 midnight.. Though you jolted me out of my deep sleep, Vyel.. Thank you.. Tats me! hahahahha. I love you.. and I miss you. Do good in the boards. I'll be expecting your name in the top ten list ah.. (No pressure!).

To Pie.. Your text message almost made me cry. I'm proud that we managed to keep our friendship strong.. What would I do without you and Vyel and Roan? Especially your in-your-face attitude.. where you never failed to set me straight whenever? Hahahaha. I love you. I miss you. Do good in your last sem. And I'm happy that Lang is home already. :))

To Paul. Hmph. hahahaha. My one day late greeting is still better than your Friendster comments. hahahaha. Favorite pa rin kita.. don't worry. :)

To Roan. Ayusin mo sa boards ah?? Para bigyan kayo ng pera ng AUF. LIBRE NON!!! Thank you Roan.. for everything. I miss you din. I love you. :)

RLE 1: Collective na toh. Oo na... siya na nagremind sa inyo. Tama na sa issue. hahahaha. Thank you for your greetings. Thank you.. for everything. What would I do without you all?? Miss ko na kayo.

...to you.. yes to you.. I don't know if you're able to read this.. or whatever. But... if that's an olive branch.. then I'm going to accept it. And I just hope.. that the day will come when we could be friends again. I'm happy that you're happy now. Don't worry.. I'm happy with my life as well. Goodluck and God Bless.

To my Tarts.. :) Thank you sa lahat. Thank you for the understanding.. and for knowing me without the need of any explanations on my part. Thank you for the gift of friendship. I would never have survived the hellish times in College without you 3, by my side. :) Bastat Salamat. I lab you tarts!!

To Egay: Salamat sa lahat ng pakikinig. Sa lahat ng chismis. To all our YM moments. I'd never imagined that we'd be this close. I'm happy that you made the choice already. Listen to your heart... you're the only one who can determine your happiness.. to hell what everyone says diba?? :) Salamat Egay! Love you.. Isdaan tayo minsan. :)

To Ging.. where is the PDF File?? hahahaha. Thank you Ging. :) For everything. Salamat sa lahat ng pakikinig. Sa lahat ng mga sound advice. Let's go take some beautiful pictures together?? hahahah. I love you, Kapatid. :) Do good din in your last sem. Go work for GMA, para if I want to appear in TV.. I could just contact you. hahahahaha. Be happy! :)

and to the Almighty one above.. Thank you po. :)

And to all those who greeted me. Thank you so so much. You all made my birthday pretty special because you remembered. :)

God Bless you all!! :)

**tama na nga ang drama!! hahahaha. I'm 21 already.. INUMAN NA!!! hahahaha.

Exhilarating.

It's really exhilarating.
Finding yourself amidst troubles.

:)

After this, WALA NA.

I still don't know if I'll post this in Mulitply. (I still need to think about that).
Anyway...

Ok. I admit. I have this need to know everything.. or at least every thing that interests me. Call me shallow.. call me a gossip.. but I like hearing about gossips. Ewan ko. Well.. I don't spread it around.. but I just like hearing all about people's lives. Whether they're good (mas maganda) or bad. Bastat.. I like to stay updated.

So yes, sometimes I unabashedly ask some friends about him and her. And then, there's the shirt.

But.. here's the truth.

I've accepted the fact that I was trying to not be bitter about things. When I've stopped with the denial... I've felt.. free. I've felt that I can really say.. that I'm over everything.

I'm happy with my life na. Things are starting to fall into place. I'm a few steps from the finish line.

I have let go.

I will stop asking questions na.

And then maybe in the very distant future.. we'll all be friends again.

NO MORE.

P.S. and the shirt?? It's hilarious right?? What's wrong with having fun with it? ;)

Ano ba!!!

Ano ba! There's a new NFS game out and I didn't even know. I just saw it on the top downloads in Isohunt.com

It's Need for Speed Undercover.
I don't care if I haven't finished any single NFS game yet.

It's still car racing. And I'm going to download it ASAP. :))

NFS Undercover.

A new Need for Speed Game
Need I say more?
Available to download at pspisoz.com

Wohoo!!! :))

Yes!!

Finally!! In a few days' time!!
This is going to be mine!!! :))


It's a Nikon D60.
What do you think?? :)



**This is the reason why I don't have any money right now. I'm going to surrender all the money that I'll receive for my birthday and for Christmas. As well as, I'm not going to open any gifts this Christmas because of this. But it's okay!! :))

I find comfort in these words...

I've made mistakes in my life.
I've let people take advantage of me,
and I accepted way less than I deserve.
But, I've learned from my bad choices and
even though there are some things that I can never
get back and people who will never be sorry,
I'll know better next time and
I won't settle for anything less than I deserve.

It's time to own up for what I feel.
It's time to just face everything head on.
I'm almost to the finish line.

It's time to let go.
Not only of the pain.
But of the bitterness.. and the regret.

It's time to find genuine happiness within myself.

I've got to learn to let go.

...and focus on the things that matters.

Rant. Rant. Rant.

I'm soo fat again. Hay. Why can't I let go of my chocolates?
I need motivation!!!

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This internet is so slow. I don't care it's DSL already. It's just soo slow. It has taken me a day and a half to finish downloading the first part of Loco Roco.

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I'm starting my NCLEX Review soon. And I can't find the will within me to finish this off. In order to appease my mom's mind. I mean.. I have realized during my weeks of bumming that I don't want to be a nurse. Just thinking about working as a nurse makes me cringe. Nursing is a noble profession.. I know that.. But.. it's just not for me. I know the tons of dollars that I'll earn in working as a Nurse in the US of A would not make me happy.

There's this fire burning within me. And even if I try to down it by thinking of the tons of books to study and read and research.. That fire just won't go away.

Now.. I know what I want. I just have to make sure that that's what I'll get.

Flattered. NOT!!

Actually. I don't know what to feel or how to react.

What would you feel like if someone is emulating your style.. di bale sana kung carry nya. HINDI NAMAN eh. Di bale sana if she wears them.. BUT NO!!! She just buys them kasi.. "ang ganda kasi eh.. nkita kong suot ni Gelay." And then she just stuffs them in her cabinet.

WTF!

Can't she find her own style.. and then base it these when she shops for new clothes??

She already bought a thick framed glasses just because I wear one. DUH!! I wear one because I'm nearsighted. Eh.. she just bought one kasi I wear them. Arrgghh!!

And then.. one time she saw me wearing a black dress with red heels. And then she bought red heels and then a black dress. Note: The black dress she bought is the same style as mine.

She also bought this pink shirt (according to my tita.. di naman daw maganda yung color) just because she saw me wearing one... and it looks good on me.

Just because I wear orange.. she wears orange too. And then my tita told me that she doesn't wear that article of clothing anymore because, as my mom often says.. about looking like a reflector.

Hay. There's a lot of other instances pa. Nakakainis lang. Especially, for someone like me who dislikes being copied. Hay.

So now.. that I want to enter Med School.. she wants to enter Med School as well.

So then.. if I finally gathered enough money to buy myself a dSLR.. she'll want one for herself too??

WOW NAMAN!

Arrgghh!!

It's November!!

I know it's the middle of the month now.
But.. I'm just overwhelmed by the tons of things that I'm going to do.

Applying for UST Medical School
Fixing my NCLEX Application papers and then sending them to California.
Review for NCLEX
My self-review for the NMAT
And of course.. the tour of my Lola's guest.
Wedding preparations.
oh! and losing weight!

those things are only for November.
I know it's not really A LOT. But for someone who's been used to doing nothing for the past how many months. It's just a shock in the system. That's all. hehehe.
It would've been more convenient if I'll stay back home. But I want to have my review in Manila. So.. it's going to be tiring for me.. traveling all the time.

But then.. this is my choice. I'm keeping all my options open. :)

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My 21st birthday is near!!
I want a Nikon d60!!!!!! :))

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Oh!! and I already got my PRC License!!! hahahaha. I'm a licensed professional already!

Good news for me!

Akala nyo kung ano noh?? hahaha.

Well.. forget what happened kanina sa trinoma. hahaha. I'll just laugh it off na lang. If you don't have any idea what's that about.. then don't ask na. hahahha. And that's all I'm going to say about the matter na. Case closed.

So... let's go to the good news!!

To all PSP addicts like me.. na na-addict sa pag ka cute ng sounds and graphics ni Loco Roco... There's Loco Roco 2 na!!!

hahahahha. Addict na ako. Wala nang pakielamanan. hahahaha.

Yey!!! :))